I'm a selfish jerk and stuff.

[Shane 'ProgZmax' Stevens]

Well, whatever the problem is I hope you can work it out.

[Crimson Wizard]

I am not sure I understood everything what was said here, but the situation about long unemployment sounds a bit familiar.
I had similar thing some time ago; I couldn't find a job for a long while (later I realized I did certain mistakes, but that's irrelevant), and when I finally did and thought the "unlucky" period is over, it turned out to be the worst job I ever had and that nearly drove me mad :/.
The anger mixed with self-overcriticism resulted in a long depression that lasts till now (I think it starts to weaken...), even though I changed to much better job already.
The details are personal and particular, I guess. For me the only thing that could improve my mood was making something for others and, especially, with others, the feeling that I and what I do is actually useful to people.

Don't know what happens with you, monkey, and how much it is same, thought I'd mention this... just in case.

[Ghost]

Sounds like you really have something on your mind. Unemployment is never nice, and having memes bite you must be pretty bad too. Hope you'll get over it, man.

[WHAM]

This thread is one of two things:

- A pointless begging for attention thread, in which case I find it unusually silly and confusing.

- A confused and difficult-to-comprehend, yet genuine cry for help, in which case I have little of value to offer, unfortunately.

[monkey0506]

WHAM, you're leaving out, roughly, infinity billion other possibilities as for what this thread could be for.

The first post could be more telling than it lets on, but for now I will neither confirm or deny any such accusations.

[Eric]

Is this a mystery now? If so, I wondered at first if it had something to do with testing links on the wiki.

[Baron]

Is this a mystery now?

Ooo, I love mysteries!  It was the femme-fatale that did it, wasn't it?  Wasn't it?  And if it wasn't her, it should have been.... 

[Ponch]

It was Colonel Mustard in the Conservatory with the Lead Pipe! 

[Igor Hardy]

It was Colonel Mustard in the Conservatory with the Lead Pipe! 

Now you've spoiled it for me.

[Ponch]

You're just jealous because you thought it was Professor Plum with the revolver. 

[Al_Ninio]

I'm an attention seeking drama queen.

Fixed, now the title would shed more light on the thread's content.