Topic: I'm a selfish jerk and stuff.

[monkey_05_06]

kbai.

[Calin Leafshade]

agreed.

[monkey_05_06]

Coming from you, I can hardly say I'm surprised.

[Calin Leafshade]

[Crimson Wizard]

happens...
what about the utility classes 

[Stupot+]

Let's start a Selfish Jerk Society.  Only if I get to be the leader, though.

[monkey_05_06]

well way to derail a thread guys. so much for trying to be serious about this.

[Ascovel]

I'm a selfish jerk and stuff.

Who cares? Be that way.

[Crimson Wizard]

well way to derail a thread guys. so much for trying to be serious about this.

Well, I don't take life seriously anymore. I am having this ongoing depression for about couple of years now, and can't get rid of this feeling of absurd when I watch how people live (including myself).

If you hurt someone (just a guess based on "selfish jerk" stuff), then apologize and try to improve the situation. That's the only thing I can say.

[monkey_05_06]

IGNORE THIS POST.

Does anyone have any idea on how to check if an object ALLOCATED by placement new has been CONSTRUCTED yet? I'd find it rather annoying to have to keep track of that myself. :/

[Snarky]

That sounds like a question for the tech forums. Time to locky locky?

[monkey_05_06]

I haven't been double-posting or otherwise disrupting the general flow of the forums. I believe that this being the Rumpus Room of all places that no rules have been broken.

Locking this thread would seriously hurt my feelings, but might make this whole transition easier anyway if you're really going to do that. I should hope that you meant the engine development forum, not the technical help forum seeing as AGS doesn't use C++ yet, and hopefully never will as the impact to the majority of users would be detrimental, but what the hell should I know?

[Ryan Timothy]

What's going on, Monkey? Come, have a seat, talk to me.

[Snarky]

It was more of an offer than a threat, since you didn't seem to have anything more you were prepared to get off your chest, or to welcome the responses you got. If you want it to stay open, I'll leave it open.

[Ghost]

Get a load off, monkey- what's up? Come on, talk to us. (Everything would be selfish and jerky.)

[Armageddon]

Pass the joint man.

[monkey_05_06]

I'm standing at a crossroads. There's a lot of random memes flying around. Some of them are insulting me. Some of them are leading me down dark and myserious (sic) paths of death. Some of them are holding me back from moving forward, and others...they're just there to laugh.

Some of them are hilarious. Some of them are naked.

Some of them don't exist.

I may or may not make the decision that I may or may not be making. Either way, it's been a good ride.

Don't call the police. It's not that.

I made this thread in the Rumpus Room because I knew that I wouldn't want to take this seriously at all, but it's entirely more serious than I'm not making it out to be...and entirely less serious than I won't make it out to be. I ask that you bear with arms against me through this awkward time in your lives.

[Calin Leafshade]

oh dear lord.

[monkey_05_06]

YES! I HAVE FINALLY CONVERTED CALIN "STEVE" LEAFSHADE TO CHRISTIANITY. MY LIFE IS COMPLETE!


I know I haven't been properly utilizing or making any sense of this thread. What I want to say... I'll admit... I'm scared to say. I don't know if I want to just get it over with and dump it all here, or just get over myself and let this pitiful thread die.

I just explained, in pretty great detail, part of the situation, to someone in a PM. The part that's relevant to this thread.

The parts that aren't strictly as relevant involve the fact that the contractual assignment I was working under has ended and I have not been able to find work since. Funny how that can lead to a bit of soul-searching-inducing depression. To those that I let down, if you should read this, I really, really do apologize. As an act of sincerity, I didn't even spell it ("apologize") "appopgllaze" which according to my autobiographical memoirs, I am self-obligated to do.

I don't feel great. I feel angry. And bitter. And...mellawncawly (I absolutely insist that this be read in the voice of Will Ferrell as Megamind). I'll figure this out. I promise I will. I just..I don't know yet. I don't know yet what it is that I really want to do. With this. So...for whatever it's worth...this thread is helping me in some remote way...and...when I figure it out...I'll do my best to explain. I didn't want to get in anyone's way with this...I know that for now it's just a lot of nonsense. There may be a method to my madness. Only time can tell now I suppose.

[Andail]

I like this thread.