YES! I HAVE FINALLY CONVERTED CALIN "STEVE" LEAFSHADE TO CHRISTIANITY. MY LIFE IS COMPLETE!
I know I haven't been properly utilizing or making any sense of this thread. What I want to say... I'll admit... I'm scared to say. I don't know if I want to just get it over with and dump it all here, or just get over myself and let this pitiful thread die.
I just explained, in pretty great detail, part of the situation, to someone in a PM. The part that's relevant to this thread.
The parts that aren't strictly as relevant involve the fact that the contractual assignment I was working under has ended and I have not been able to find work since. Funny how that can lead to a bit of soul-searching-inducing depression. To those that I let down, if you should read this, I really, really do apologize. As an act of sincerity, I didn't even spell it ("apologize") "appopgllaze" which according to my autobiographical memoirs, I am self-obligated to do.
I don't feel great. I feel angry. And bitter. And...mellawncawly (I absolutely insist that this be read in the voice of Will Ferrell as Megamind). I'll figure this out. I promise I will. I just..I don't know yet. I don't know yet what it is that I really want to do. With this. So...for whatever it's worth...this thread is helping me in some remote way...and...when I figure it out...I'll do my best to explain. I didn't want to get in anyone's way with this...I know that for now it's just a lot of nonsense. There may be a method to my madness. Only time can tell now I suppose.