I haven't been this annoyed about everything since God knows when. They made me wake up at 8 am which was hard especially after a restless night. All that just to ask me to the hospital, interview for 1 hour to realise something's wrong with me, yet nothing really is. A few days earlier my girlfriend had her birthday, so I was there too. In fact, we usually come to my place after clubbing, and again. Two of her friends came along because they live so far away and it was night. The other one fel asleep in my guest mattress and the other one fell asleep in her own puke on my bed. Me and my girlfriend had to sleep on a peabag, which means 4 hours of bad sleep and a hurting neck/back/legs/arms/head/effing penis and liver and what ever one can imagine. I was so bloody frustrated, but i can't really tell them to go since there's no trains and apparently none of them had money.
Now they owe me 20 euros for paying their rides home which they had drank the other night while i still thought I was having fun. after I was just dead tired and mad at them, but couldn't let it show. I'm just so tired. Today I was gonig to borrow my grandpa's car to drive to my girl because she forgot her wollet at my place, but my dad had already taken the car to take his bloody cat to the vet. We agreed to do it later.
so i went home from the hospital quite pleased that I might not have epilepsy and decided to take a nap. Only after 20 minutes my sis calls and asks how I'm doing and if I want to go to granny's with her the next day. I agreed, and went back to bed. Then my bloody granpa called and told me I could get the car when it was too late. I said I'd rather not. Then the worst thing happened which really got me furious.
My friend decided he needs memory to his computer so we went to buy one of those things. He needs me there because he doesn't kow what he's doing. And all the time I was there it was all ok, we had a cup of coffee, a huge one, and then tried if the computer would run better. It was getting awfully late and I was bloody hungry. And he was showing pictures of his belioved fu**ing car, which I as a consept really despise, being a bicycle/public transport person. And He then asked if I wanted to get some food and go to my place to try some photoshopping to his car images to see what it looks like tuned up. I spent the whole bloody 3 hours tuning his fucking renault which needed to loose handles, antennas, get speedstripes on the roof, darkened windows. And I am so tired! I couldn't figure out photoshop because of it. And he kept telling me to do this and that and this and that, and I told him I didn't know how to, and he just didn't realise that the layers of the image are separate and all that. And when we were kind of done I tried relaxing with Vulture's Eye which is an isometric roguelike, an apparently awfully sucky version of nethack actually. I just fucking spat on my face. I should never have even tried getting back to playing games. I was completely happy these past 3 years without any gaming experience, and now that I try, even ToME won't cooperate with me.
And trying to set up the setup in the setups I just got so bloody frustreated of this shit they call music that I have 40 gigs worth on my computer, most of it ILLEGALLY aquired. I can't find anything to listen to. It's all annoying. The movie on the telly makes me want to jump out the window and CSI on the other channel is just plain crap.
It's like the tv people thought we were all mainstream retards that actually could watch stuff like Heroes without deep inner pain and the desire to cut our eyes out. They want to please, as everyone does, but they end up hated allover the world. And most of all I despise the Candid Camera show which makes me want to kill everyone around. Tonight i almost slammed my keyboard through my screen because of the stupid games. My crapload of a computer takes 15 minutes to open bloody opera and maxthon doesn't work and winamp gets stuck and mIRC makes a horrible noise when connected and MSN has been down the whole day with error this and error that. And immediately the fuckhead that windows is lets me know that it wants to upgrade! Why can't you just breed on your own time!
And I'm so tired! So tired of those nice girls that are friends to my girlfriend and to me. Sometimes people should just realise that they are NOT needed or wanted around. When you want to snuggle or just smile for a while. Perhaps to eat or even have a conversation! ARGGH! I need a cup of tea! A job! A time machine to take me 1 month further in time when I'm not forced to be alone again! I want to punch some crap-jerk in the face! And I wish Peter Funt was here I'd just push his detestable retard face in a toaster and make it look human again and then rip his skin off and hang bricks onto his balls. I just want that person to suffer! I want him to suffer! I can't stan his face! Why must everyone be a freaking retard in this world?!!?! And must it really be so that all things that mean something are made by people that don't mean anything to anyone? I just want to smash my head to the wall until it bleeds. Maybe letting out blood will help. I think I'm off to sleep, though at the moment I'm too furious to sleep. I could just yell, but there's no-one to yell to!
Oh, did I mention? My roommate is a fucking retard! I mean, what kind of an asshoel thinks that milk cartons will disappear if you leave them empty on the table! Imagine the smell when he was gone for christmas, and left a milk carton on the table just because it had gone bad. Never even thought of throwing it out. And there it was the whole break! I came home and the expiring date was due over a month ago! I mean what the fuck do people like him have in their heads? The guy smells, dresses up like a freak and smells and smells and oh my god I hate living here with him! I think i'm going to cry now. I feel like it. Did I mention how much I hate my friends? I'll do that next time. Well, I guess I got this off my chest. For what it's worth.
Heres what you do right, and I want you to listen very carefully.
1 Run yourself a bath, preferably with camomile.
2 Put on some gentle Jazz
3 get a nice book you enjoy.
4 Scream your fucking head off
5 kick a hole in the drywall of your house
You'll feel much better!
Or option two. Go to the psychiatic hospital and commit yourself.
To be honest, what you are feeling is a bit of depression. Chill out, relax. The world is only what you make of it. If you make the world difficult, the world becomes difficult.
Take some time out. Back up your computer. Reinstall everything. Should clear out the junk. I usually do it every 6 months to get it running nice again. Or if you don't like the crazy route, just clean your registry, defrag and all that other crap.
You are stressing out over nothing. Nothing is wrong you anally retentive bastard.
Wow, I didn't know we were allowed to do that...
Do what? Rant?
I don't exactly think it is the most useful thread to be honest. He's angry about the last few days. Woop de doo. I to be honest don't care much for it.
The thread is neither useful or funny.
It just tells me that tuomas is insane.
Get some sleep then take a day off, or at least a couple of hours and go for a walk or a drive or something, just get away from everyone else for a bit and take your mind off everything. If your friends approach you wanting to do something and you don't want to, just explain you're a bit stressed and you'll do something some other time. Most people understand stress, there doesn't seem much sense in making up other excuses. Okay, so you've got a lot of things building up that are really annoying and being really tired isn't going to help, but when you calm down and look at them there's nothing really that bad, nothing you can't handle. Count your blessings too if that helps.
Quote from: Layabout on Wed 27/02/2008 00:03:36
I don't exactly think it is the most useful thread to be honest. He's angry about the last few days. Woop de doo. I to be honest don't care much for it.
The thread is neither useful or funny.
Careful... you'll end up on Tuomas' next list...
There was a thread about sleeping a while back, I don't see how dealing with stress is any different.
Something that one of my counselors told me to do whenever I was pissed off at my mom, is to write her a letter. You could do the same to any one of the people who you are aggravated with. Write them a letter, tell them why you're pissed at them, and tell them what you'd like to see done about the situation. Don't hold any punches, either. If you wanna call one of them some obscenely horrible name, or tell them to commit some gruesomely painful form of suicide, then go ahead.
But the catch is, you never give the person(s) the letter. You crumple it up and throw it away, and the person that it's to never sees it.
I didn't really understand the point of that exercise, but it did help me somewhat. I wasn't always so infuriated at my mom when I started doing that, and I actually became less passive.
Then again, everything I just told you is basically what you did in your first post here... only it's in the form of a forum thread. :-\
Another thing that you could do is, definitely take a day off from work/school/etc., and just disappear for the day. Go somewhere where no-one you know will find you, and do whatever you please. When you come home later on in the day, and everyone starts interrogating you about where you've been, just tell them "I needed some me time. Now back off."
I don't know if it's just me, but I found that rant to be oddly funny, alot of it rings so true.
I know it sounds silly, but just get some sleep. If you feel better, great. If not, start hammering out a plan to get help.
Quote from: Nine Toes on Wed 27/02/2008 05:04:06
I didn't really understand the point of that exercise, but it did help me somewhat. I wasn't always so infuriated at my mom when I started doing that, and I actually became less passive.
I might assume it pretty much because while writing it, you really have to think of it through. And thinking about it, you eventually realise, that it's really nothing to be mad about :)
Oh, and don't mind me. I just did this one for spamming purposes. Felt great. And I slept on it. Seems to be enough like that. Though ranting is fun. You should try it now that the thread is already opened ;)
Quote from: Tuomas on Wed 27/02/2008 10:28:02
Oh, and don't mind me. I just did this one for spamming purposes. Felt great. And I slept on it. Seems to be enough like that. Though ranting is fun. You should try it now that the thread is already opened ;)
Maybe having one sticky thread (Who nobody would really read, to be honest) where everybody can rant is a good idea.
Hijacking the gen gen forums everytime someone wakes up in a bad mood should be really annoying...
Like a "How are you feeling today?" random ranting thread? Seen it work at a couple of forums, though it easily ballooned to 1600 pages.
Tuomas,
Honestly, you were tired... What did you expect? :D
I tell you this. try it, it's a GREAT exersize: Stay up and don't sleep for one night. Then go to have some exerisize (running for example) at 08:00 in the morning. Don't sleep during the day, but keep yourself busy! Repeat for a few days! Jus find something to keep yourself really busy (for me it was the army).
After a while everything else fades and all that is left is the 10 minutes that will aid you to sleep. Clothes on and everything. And of course you are itchy like hell!
Reason for this exercize? To see how far can you go! You'll be amazed! To watch yourself react to difficult circumstances, and sleep deprived is a DIFFICULT ONE!
Don't worry.
Rants are always fine, as long as nobody overdoes it. I had one in a different forum, cause I just couldn't take it anymore! It just happens...
Voh; Yeah... But, as said, nobody would ever take a look to it, and, with a bit of training, it woul dbe easy to forget it was there, once. :)
Y'know generally the exercise goes 'write an angry letter to someone who's upset you, but don't post it...'
Quote from: Emerald on Wed 27/02/2008 14:32:16
Y'know generally the exercise goes 'write an angry letter to someone who's upset you, but don't post it...'
Yes Yes Yes! And then burn it! Letting all the bad energy flow into the flames
or is that just a girl thing to do?
Just stay away from the curtains or there could be trouble :P
Edit: That and chocolate
Quote from: Emerald on Wed 27/02/2008 14:32:16
Y'know generally the exercise goes 'write an angry letter to someone who's upset you, but don't post it...'
well you obviously never read all of this thread because Nine Toes already mentioned that
Well, I guess that was a lesson for you so you could learn to say "No" to some things... You have your own things too, tell them that. When you are tired, tell them, a friend doesn't mind.
Yo Tuomas! Much of that hassle you brought on yourself. If you're dead tired, annoyed, stressed and late or whatever, why agree to waste hours and hours to photoshop a car for a friend? Sounds silly.
It doesn't sound like any of the problems you listed there are "real" problems, just signs of your own hyper sensitivity.
Girls depriving you of sleep? That happens, it shows you have a social life. Having people around you is a good thing. Sure it does sound a bit teenage with the pukes and all, but hey.
Your computer running slowly? Well at least you have a computer, just clean it and it'll be fine.
Room mates are generally a nuisance, we've probably all been there. Just ride it out, eventually you'll leave and find a place of your own.
So, obviously it's not really the circumstances around you that add up to you feeling bad, the feeling comes from inside you and if it persists you need to go to a psychologist. Or just get some freaking sleep!
Well good luck anyhow!
Yeah, I don't usually get mad, but when you're tired, it's really easy. And then things you find slightly annoying make you want to kill everyone. In fact, reading above, I don't think I've been that mad in years, and it's most often for no reason anyway. Really if it had been anything serious, I would have told them otherwise. But I was tired and mad enough to write it here. And I knew people would take me a bit too seriously in relation to what i think of myself :) Only thing I usually find annoying is my roommate, and that's a thing I can't help, not in my financial situation. Though in some 5 months it's bound to change, I sure hope so at least.