Am I insane? An emotion question...

[InCreator]

There's a question haunting me since childhood. A feeling I tend to feel, and I haven't heard about such thing anywhere... Even on the almighty Internet.

If someone is doing something, close to me, with his or her hands, for SOME people, I get this strange vibe.
Since emotions are very difficult to explain, I try my best:

* My breathing gets slower and harder, like something is pressing onto my cheeks and blocking nose
* I get very calm, close to hypnosis or meditation, I cannot force my eyes off from the person
* My heart rate gets quicker
* and most important and best felt - I get this strange warm fuzzing or buzzing or vibration in the back of my head, like in the lower side of brain or something. I totally feel it. My head feels like there's a little engine working in it, generating warm, relaxing, arousing and very enjoyable feeling

It's incredibly good feeling. I totally go crazy and enjoy every second of it, regret the moment when it's over.
What causes it? What do I know about it?

* It's definitely linked to someone's hands. I don't have to see them, but be quite close, atleast in same room. The closer, the stronger the feeling.
* It's not erotic, love-related or sexual in any way. It doesn't count sex or age.
Because I feel same or even stronger for men, and older people. A bit clumsy or different people. Really old people, sometimes.
* Person who induces it, is always very concentrated onto something, and doing something with hands. First times I felt anything like this was at barber's. Little sounds fingers make on working, like touching sounds or little scissors snipping or so.
* Very few people are able to give me such "vibe". As I said, they are usually slow-moving, maybe a bit clumsy (like old people are), something like this.
* Person doing whatever he/she is doing doesn't have to be in direct contact with me, and most often they are not. I simply observe them doing something and suddenly this warm pulsating starts in my head.

It was one of those reaaallly rare and strange feelings during most of my life. I felt it once a year, at most. For 24 years.

After I got new job few months ago, moving into print/design business, suddenly - this goes like, on daily basis. There's always people gluing or folding something, inspecting my designs etc. And some of them give really strong vibe. They like, turn completed design, look here and there, fingers make quiet sounds when handling carton or fiberboard, they think-think-think.... and I watch and get semi-hypnotized and suddenly my brain goes "brrrrrr" 

What's even more strange that I'm sometimes and somehow able to induce this vibe all by myself now. I work on something, and like, this starts from my own concentration and handicraft. Rarely, but it does. It never happened previously in my life.

I repeat, it's not sexual in any way - for a male, it's really easy to determine such thing, but it feels even better sometimes, and totally disorients and hypnotizes me.
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What could that be?

Am I getting telepathic links in environment of extreme concentration?
Or getting part of some "energy fields" those wannabe shamans on TV talk?
Or being sensitive to/absorbing bioelectricity?
Or having frequent internal brain bleeds and somehow translate them as good feeling?

Or am I simply going insane?

Has anyone ever felt something like this?

[Andail]

Your first "symptoms" sounds like typical endorphine exudations, similar to those you can get from itching a bad rash (although intensified) submerging in hot water, getting a massage, etc. Those feelings can often be more intense than sexual arousement.
Why you get it is way beyond me, maybe it has to do with the sound of friction generated by hand movements. Never heard of it before.
Friction does have some strange effects on humans though, mostly negative, though, like fingernails on a blackboard and similar.

[InCreator]

Whoah, quite close!
I have to wiki for "endorphine exudation" because I have no idea what that meant, but examples are quite close.
Most similar thing I could think of is long, refreshing yawn, or stretching yourself if you're tired. The relaxation effect is as good, if not better.

Even closer would be when you wake up extremely tired after few hours of sleep, realize that there's no need to wake up, and that few REALLY enjoyable, happy seconds before you fall asleep again.

Are you tired? Stretch your arms to the sides out wide, closing fists, keep them as tense and stretched out as you can and move them upwards until upper arms meet ears, while keeping the tension and stretch.

That vibrating, warm, deafing feeling near back of the neck, ears and lower head is about what I feel when in situation this thread is about. But times stronger, tonnes better, quite alot different and way higher in head. Plus, I'm heavily addicted and hypnotized when this happens.

Another close example - of atleast part of the feeling - is simply to cover your ears with hands. You will hear humming and feel warmth.
In my case, this humming is directly in head, not only ears, and caused mentally, not physically.

But it's not about sound. Sound amplifies it heavily, as well as being inside personal area (close enough for most people to start to feel psychologically uncomfortable), but it works even if I don't look at the person nor hear him/her and I'm in the opposite corner of the room.

I SENSE that person, somehow. And his/her concentration. I'm linked to it and hypnotized by it. Almost like controlled by it.

Well, maybe I'm simply supersensitive? But then, why only some, very specific people induce this?

Endorphin version - wiki says this:

Another widely publicized effect of endorphin production is the so-called "runner's high", which is said to occur when strenuous exercise takes a person over a threshold that activates endorphin production. Endorphins are released during long, continuous workouts, when the level of intensity is between moderate and high, and breathing is difficult. This also corresponds with the time that muscles use up their stored glycogen. Workouts that are most likely to produce endorphins...

The new job that made those - otherwise very rare occasions of this particular feeling so frequent - is totally nothing like I'd ever done before. There's not much physical "workout", but 8 to 9 hours a day, my brain is running a marathon, and I'm thinking, inventing, solving problems comparable to hardest school exam. Doing this almost 5 months, all day long might be the reason. I'm still leaning towards insanity version, though

[Oliwerko]

Now this is really interesting, InC. The example with waking up and those few happy seconds reminded me on one thing that I experience all the time.
When I wake up at 7am during a weekday, I am nearly dead and totally unable to kick myself to stand up. When I wake up at the same time at the weekend, I can easily wake up and start up in just a few seconds. I guess this is caused by the subconscious telling you that you don't have to do anything, that it's weekend!

I don't think you're insane, I just think you may be oversensitive to those hands/fingers stuff you mentioned.

I can't wear some materials for example. You know those jackets that are made out of a fleece material that creates a great deal of friction when in contact with skin. I can't stand the contact. Every time I touch this material I get goose skin and I feel very incomfortable.

Another thing I am very sensitive to is simple mood. I totally need to have a good mood to achieve the delirious feeling that may be similar to yours (but not so sensitive with the physical feelings). Sure, everyone wants to maintain good mood, but I am really keen on this. When I have nothing to do, the weather is sunny and I am going to spend an hour reading stuff I like and then going to have a beer with friends, that makes me feel really good. Better than the sum of the happiness created by those activities. It's hard to explain. Things get complicated when I am happy just because I am happy and vice-versa. I only get the good emotional feeling when consciously in a good mood. That makes me feel happy. I don't actually need to DO happy stuff, I need to be in a situation knowing that I WILL or CAN do it. It's some kind of 'sense of situation' or what. It usually happens when I am home alone, listening to good music, weather is sunny and I have no obligations and some good entertainment plans. This composition of the situation makes me have good mood and feeling that delirious feeling.
To sum it up, subconsciously knowing that I have some free time etc not only makes me feel good, but makes me realize the good mood I'm in and this way I achieve the perfect emotional feeling.

Are we insane? No, I think not.
We are just oversensitive to some stuff, I think.

[Misj']

Random questions:
- During these events when you are hypnotized, are you able to continue working, or do you only observe.
- How long do these vibes generally last? - Few seconds? - Minutes?
- If an external stimulus occurs during the event, can you respond to it (in other words: do you snap out of the vibe)?
- Do you like cats?
- When you talk to people, do you generally look them in the eye, or do you look away.
- When talking to people, does your mind and/or activities drift (like doodling).
- Are you more analytic towards yourself/the world around you than others?
- Do you feel socially understood. Do you find it difficult to to keep a relationship (either friendly, or male-female)?
- Do you prefer pastel colours?
- Are you attracted to activities that induce an adrenaline rush (like roller-coasters, or bungee-jumping)?
- Do you consider yourself to be good at distinguishing between important and side issues?
- Do people generally share your sense of humour?
- During the vibes, do your visual senses change? - For example: are there glittering lights.
- Can other people observe your events? - And if so, how would they describe your presence during such an event?
- Have you ever had a black-out?
- Are any of your senses affected during the event, and does this continue when the event is over (like a lingering smell, or a taste in your mouth)?
- Have you ever (casually) consulted a doctor about this?
- Do any of these questions make sense?

[ManicMatt]

And if you are insane? Then what? You going to declare yourself insane and lock yourself up, or just get on with life and shrug it off? Or erm.. yeah...

[InCreator]

Random questions:
- During these events when you are hypnotized, are you able to continue working, or do you only observe.

Yes, but I don't want to. The vibe is too good to spoil it. If I continue, it wears off after short time.

- How long do these vibes generally last? - Few seconds? - Minutes?

Depends. Minutes, usually, I can't stare someone, or people would think I'm weird. Then again, if getting a haircut and barber happens to be "the one", it may last a hour or so. It's always connected to person. If person goes, vibe too.

- If an external stimulus occurs during the event, can you respond to it (in other words: do you snap out of the vibe)?

Yes, but I'm disoriented a bit at first. If I'm forced to do something else or respond, vibe slowly decreases and disappears.

- Do you like cats?

I love cats.

- When you talk to people, do you generally look them in the eye, or do you look away.

Estonians usually don't look into eyes. It's considered (not written rule) - aggressive. I do it when I remember to - just to have some sick fun: people can't stand my eye contact for long usually, and my brown eyes are uncommon for northern people around here. Ladies, though. Staring at men would either boil some bad blood or guarantee gay reputation.

- When talking to people, does your mind and/or activities drift (like doodling).

I have lived and worked at computer 80% of my conscious life. So it's like a standard - I always do something else too when discussing something. As a creative person, I usually don't like talking, because it wastes valuable time and try to keep discussions either informative and short or drift away.

- Are you more analytic towards yourself/the world around you than others?

Since age of 3. I read works of Benjamin Spock and tutored my parents how to raise me right. Seeing them fail, I've raised myself for most of childhood.

- Do you feel socially understood. Do you find it difficult to to keep a relationship (either friendly, or male-female)?

No. I've always been "that mysterious guy". I've had very few friends, but I'm very loyal so they've been very strong relationships. I've never met a woman with same amount of loyalty so I'm single right now.

- Do you prefer pastel colours?

I don't wear them... so it's hard to say. But my favourite colors are neon colors, or however they are called. Like (215/255/95 RGB and 125/185/205 RGB, etc). Sorry, don't know how to describe color better. As an artist, I always try to have many colors on single work, and not afraid of high saturation. I hate typical low-sat, dark-looking images all newbies, and sometimes, veterans make. For example Emily Enough was interesting game, but color scheme really frustrated me.

- Are you attracted to activities that induce an adrenaline rush (like roller-coasters, or bungee-jumping)?

Yes! Haven't tried em' much, though. Not much possibilities, friends to go with, or even theme park around here, neither, though.

- Do you consider yourself to be good at distinguishing between important and side issues?

Yes, definitely - and main barricade with women. Cannot stand "lost my eyeliner-crisis" or "one-misunderstood-joke = end-of-10-years-relationship" kind of bullshit.

- Do people generally share your sense of humour?

Depends. Got lots of it, though. Who know me, do. Who don't, get offended or think I'm weird.

- During the vibes, do your visual senses change? - For example: are there glittering lights.

Hm. Maybe. I'm a bit dizzier so I don't concentrate on vision much. Like dreaming people don't notice what's around.

- Can other people observe your events? - And if so, how would they describe your presence during such an event?

Haven't asked, it's been my strange personal secret for 24 years... Since it's very rare and happens with people I don't know or whom would never tell about this, no comments. But it's easy to notice someone who instead of working stares at someone doing something, I guess. What else to notice?

- Have you ever had a black-out?

2 times in whole life, one for heat stroke/head trauma and one for blood loss. Not connected.

- Are any of your senses affected during the event, and does this continue when the event is over (like a lingering smell, or a taste in your mouth)?

Don't recall anything like that. Symptoms I described. Senses? My hearing might be a bit muffled and sight more focused, narrowed towards vibe source. Body feels warm and I feel like I'm hovering outside of my body or something, like it wasn't connected to my neck. Depends on vibe strength and duration. But main focus and feeling and everything is in brain, somewhere back there, not near forehead. This area has usually my whole attention.

- Have you ever (casually) consulted a doctor about this?

I don't consult doctor never, on anything. Any doctor visit means atleast 4 hours of sitting (more often standing) in the waiting room, and if I don't have fever or anything serious to report, It's life threatening to go to doctor at all, with all the workload the corrupted medical system has here. Also, I cannot reproduce this at doctor's office...

- Do any of these questions make sense?

Not really, though I have 2 theories: either you are similar/know anyone similar and trying to draw parrallels, or I have some well-described condition or something.

I'm interested, if not excited. WHY did you ask all this?

[ManicMatt]

Interesting, I know an estonian guy and he looks into people's eyes a lot when talking. Yeah either he's adapted to living in the UK or he doesn't consider it aggressive.

[InCreator]

Eyes or general direction of the face? Friends or well-known people might do this, indeed. But on the streets, I doubt.
"Aggressive" is unwritten rule, not a tradition or standard. Of course, all those "live happier"-people and social workers etc encourage people to be more open, smile more and look into eye, etc.

Local people simply don't do that. Comes from "keeping to self" very typical introvert and melanholic nature of estonians.
And of course, people vary, I'm simply stereotyping here. Not every british is same, neither.

Go on, chat with him and drill directly into his eyes. I bet after 30 seconds, he starts to get nervous even if it's hard to notice.

[ManicMatt]

Haha, I'll have to try that! 

[Misj']

- Do any of these questions make sense?

Not really, though I have 2 theories: either you are similar/know anyone similar and trying to draw parrallels, or I have some well-described condition or something.

I'm interested, if not excited. WHY did you ask all this?

First of all, I'm not a doctor. So anything I say may be wrong (that is also true for doctors of course, but that's a whole different story).
I have - however - due to my study and profession acquired some knowledge about certain diseases. Plus the sanity of  most of my colleagues is questionable...so I fit in perfectly

Throughout my questions I've looked at a number of possible conditions, and some were just pure nonsense:
- Schizophrenia
- Simple partial epileptic seizure
- Asperger syndrome (a form of autism generally associated with high(er) intelligence)

I actually didn't add that many questions on schizophrenia, but apart from the fact that people who are more striving for adrenaline rushes have have been shown to be more a risk-group for schizophrenia, there was noting in your answers that made me suspect that you suffer from this. While the cause of schizophrenia is still largely unknown, one of it's main symptoms is a difficulty to filter information (thus making it difficult to differentiate between side and main issues). So no schizophrenia...which is a good thing, because it scares the smeg out of me.

As for the simple partial epileptic seizure...it's cause by over-firing of synapses in brain areas (and why that happens in not fully understood). If it happens in the entire brain you get the shaky thing everyone thinks about hearing the word 'epileptic', in other cases the over-firing is confined to certain areas of the brain, which can cause different observations depending on the area. For example, Jean d'Arc had a type of epilepsy - or so they think - that stimulated among other things the emotional pleasure centre in the brain.Consequently, when she had a 'vision' (or seizure) she felt very good, as if she was 'touched by God'. There was also a Russian Tsar who had the same, whenever he was preparing for war and thinking of a strategy he would know it was good is he had this feeling. However...in general people can't continue during such an epileptic seizure, it's difficult to snap out of it. Seizures are often observable by surrounding people even though they might not understand what they see. Black-outs have been associated with the cause or onset of epilepsy. Anyway, from your description I would consider it unlikely that it's epilepsy, but should you notice more black-outs or hear from people that you're not consciously present while you were fiddling with things (like pieces of your clothing), then you should consult a doctor. But as I said: I doubt that's necessary.

There are different severities of Asperger. In the worst case someone is completely out of touch with other people (especially emotionally)...you know this archetype of the scientist who lives in his own bubble. It is said that seventy or eighty percent of the scientists (especially the well known ones) suffer from this disorder in some way of another. People with Asperger are often highly analytical (they often over-analyse themselves), they feel misunderstood by society (they can for example have a sense of humour that is slightly more 'cultivated' that that of the people around them), they often drift during conversations, rarely look people in the eye, are somewhat self-centred (although the degree can vary, and often not egoistic) and are at the same time loyal to friends (and can feel extremely hurt when the other appears to be less loyal). Their 'special' view of the world may also tends them towards depression. On the other hand...many 'normal' people share these 'symptoms', it's not an exact science. Also, if it is Asperger, then there is nothing to worry about. You're just weird like most of us. Would this explain the fuzzy feeling and buzzing head? - No, not really. But in autism the brain works slightly different, and synapses might be stimulated by specific external stimuli...whether it's numbers, matches, or hands. These stimuli might induce an emotional reaction (happiness) should the synapses fire at the 'right' place. On the other had, I have a former colleague who has been diagnosed with Asperger, and to be honest, I keep telling him that there's nothing wrong with him, and that he's just as insane as all of us.

Long post, that probably didn't solve anything. And as I said I'm not a doctor. And to be honest, as long as your functioning well, and do not feel that you're physically or mentally hampered by the events I would not worry too much. Should you - however - notice that your functioning is affected negatively by the vibes, you might consider to either cope with it, or visit someone who might know better than me.

Ps. as for the cat-question...I just happen to like cats.

[Timosity]

Sounds interesting, I'm sure someone would enjoy studying you.

If you get good feelings from it, lucky you, most people need drugs, if you can get sensations this way, it is much cheaper.

If it doesn't kill you, can't see any reason it would be bad, if the come down isn't good, that's the same with any good feeling when it goes. otherwise your body wouldn't know the difference between good and bad feelings.

Just go with it.

On a different note, I've been bitten by wasps a few times, it really hurts and burns initially, but once the poison effects you, it is the most insane feeling, probably just adrenalin, but it is something I look forward to. (as long as it is not a deadly one, or a swarm)

once I was bitten twice in 2 days, the second day, it wasn't as intense cause I'd probably already built up some immunity or tolerance. So best not to chase any good feelings, just let them happen as rare as possible and they will always be at the most intense.

[ThreeOhFour]

I get something a little bit like this (with different parts though) every now and then.

In the last year I changed jobs and started working in a shearing shed. A lot of my job involves using my hands, working with other people doing the same thing. While it's pretty noisy in the shearing shed, every now and then (when I start doing the part with lots of involvement with my hands) I seem to go into an intense moment of relaxation, where I feel like the world around me has vanished and the noises and sights around me are blurred. However, whatever is directly in front of me (usually my hands sorting wool) is more vivid. The smell of the wool becomes very clear, as though I was focusing on my sense of smell as well. I get the feeling that my perception of time has slowed down, although it may not have slowed down at all. It is definitely a good feeling. I'm not sure about breathing - I can't recall feeling like I was breathing heavy during this time, but I've never focused on breathing during it.

It may be something completely different, but it's something I've wondered about for a little while.

[Matti]

Damn, InCreator, you're neither insane nor the only one getting these feelings. I think I have very similar moments though not as strong as you describe them. I never talked about that with anyone so it's really funny you started that thread here.

I completely agree to the following points:

* Person who induces it, is always very concentrated onto something, and doing something with hands. First times I felt anything like this was at barber's. Little sounds fingers make on working, like touching sounds or little scissors snipping or so.
* Person doing whatever he/she is doing doesn't have to be in direct contact with me, and most often they are not. I simply observe them doing something and suddenly this warm pulsating starts in my head.

I'm not getting "hypnotized" or have some sort of feeling in my head or neck. But sometimes I get REALLY relaxed when someone is working around me. It just happened last week when my uncle - an electrician - came over to install a large lamp. It was a bit complicated and took him a while. I was standing there, watched him working and immediately got very relaxed.

Another example was my physics teacher installing some sort of thing to get an experiment working. It was many many years ago but I still remember the relaxing and chilly mood I got back then.

And - just like you - the first time I experienced that feeling was at a barber and then *everytime* I went to one. I even get into that mood when listening to the Virtual Barber Shop, cause that guy is always busy working with his hands.

I don't really know what this is either but I like it. As for me I believe that it's stronger when I'm a bit tired because then it's easier to get relaxed.

[Tuomas]

I think it's because someone close to you did something to you when you were just a little boy. But for some reason instead of feeling bad, you get a good feeling. That, or the feeling is too extreme, and your body doesn't recognise the pain, but interprets it as something nice.

[Andail]

First of all, I'm not a doctor.

Which is fitting, since InCreator isn't ill.
He's just found an usual way of enjoying himself

[miguel]

Hi, I've been reading this thread and I want to share my point of view with an example that happens to me often:

I have several tattoos on me and although some of them really hurt, some, the last 2 specially, gave me pleasure.
This summer I went for another one.
I know the tattoo parlour owner and we agreed that I could make a tattoo and pay him through the summer (this way my wife doesn't know I'm spending so much money on superfluous stuff !),
he said yes but the tattoo had to be done by this American guy that was in Portugal for 2 weeks and I had to do it in 2 or 3 days from that conversation because he had a busy schedule.
Ok, no problem, but this was in July where I am really busy with work and not sleeping much because of my (he was 9 months then) baby.
So, on the day I get into the studio, it was about 10.30am and I had already been working since 6am. So I am tired but ready for the tattoo.
This guy (the American) was an expert, really professional but very detail-obsessed and so the session took about 4 hours.
Now, onto the reason I posted:
As the machine noise got familiar to my ears, like your neighbour doing the lawn when you're taking a nap, I started to feel relaxed and the fact that I was lying down felt really good.
Not awake but not asleep, that's how I was. And the initial pain turned into pleasure, like a massage.
The last bit was not that cool because my arm started to get soured and hurt by the pressure that the American was putting on it.
I don't know if this is related to your original post Increator, but I guess it's all to do with our nervous system and how the brain interprets sensations.
There is nothing wrong with you in the same way I don't consider myself a masochist.
Here's something by Fernando Pessoa:
     "De sábio e de louco,
       Temos todos um pouco...
        Não façam pouco,
         Que o amor é louco."

[InCreator]

First, yes, I'm not ill.
And this vibe is NOT connected to any kind of pain in any possible way.

All the diseases/conditions misj' described, well, I guess a psychiatrist would write a whole book on me, I'm quite sure I have some minor psychological disorders. Many modern people do.

Mine are induced by self-destructive lifestyle, like 2 litres of coffee daily, 6x6-hours + 1x14-hours of sleep week cycle (6hrs or less sleep every day and one 14-16hrs long sleep at weekend) and heavy smoking. I would be amazed if this didn't  cause something already. Add chronical depression and antisocial behavior (zero friends, not going out) and you can find all kinds of fancily named conditions and disorders. Nothing that would strongly affect me or be visible, though, I consider myself quite normal.

I had a smaller vibe yesterday again. Once again, this client was inspecting a design and it hooked me. Not very strong though, but I tried to analyze it and discovered that I interpret the feeling as some kind of relaxing waves coming from person. Exact area where I feel it the most is directly behind the eyes, maybe even eye nerves, and brain behind eyes.

Then again, I'm starting to think that it isn't so mysterious after all.

First, I'm overcreative, my brain works like a steam engine all the time.
* I have never felt boredom. Even if I were locked up in a room with no doors or windows or anything, I can "sink" into my thoughts/fantasies and get really lost there. For hours, days.... I don't know what boredom is.
* During school, I had to buy new notebooks every month, because they filled up too quick. Of doodling & drawings, not lesson material.
* I listen to trance music all the time. The real one, not what not-listeners think it is. I mean, not the "pumping-happy dance music" but "digital emo with depression-inducing high-pitch melodies playing most important part"
* At work, my co-worker has also di.fm playing vocal trance all the time, so I'm in it even at work.
* I suffer from heavy insomnia and personally hate sleeping: it feels like a waste of valuable time for me.
* If I go to bed too early - if I don't "crash" there being exhausted, I don't fall asleep, and instead my mind starts wandering and creating and I shockingly discover that I've been like 3 hours in bed and entangled in thoughts...
* I'm always tired and not slept well.

So, under those conditions, how difficult would it be to go insane or get oversensitive?

There's some surefire other vibes I know and can easily reproduce: For example, not sleeping at all for a night is sure way to get hysterical next day. My sense of humor goes up 400%, everything is funny and I crack jokes like a comedy machine. I'm very sensitive to everything, and even little sources of happiness or sadness or simply something cool could burst me crying (not sad crying, but more like "why does it affect me? Why are my tears falling?"). Like a good song or a seeing stray dog (specific case, I wrote a song) or something.

Or maybe I'm just fucked up.

Well that was one heavy confession. Not easy to have a personality where perfectionist-antisocial-neat-and-organized-rocket scientist and crazy-humorous-messy-disorganized-strange-bohemianist-artist meet and mix.

[miguel]

Hello again, man,
It's very brave of you to come up with all that info about you and I think you need a friend or two, man.
I know what you are feeling here, I've been there myself and you know what?
I had enough!
I'm not going to tell you to do this or that because there is nothing wrong with you other than your humanity.
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But, well, some stuff you said are just very simple to figure:
If you're not tired you will not sleep well.
If you don't have friends you're not happy.
If you don't go out you will not make friends. And if you don't like to go out at night do it in the day!
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I am going to tell you something I found about me:
Nothing beats feeling healthy. Knowing that I can take my day off and go and play some football, or swim or just run is one of the best feelings I get from life.
Knowing that I can buy a book and understand it just with the knowledge I've learned and God gave me makes me proud.
I am my body and my mind, so I should take care of both.
I have to balance my life so that I can organize myself and plan ahead.
I need goals to keep the flame alive and protect the ones I love.
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I'm sorry if this was very dramatic, but I thought you could use a hand.