I'm messed up

[ddq]

Meh, I play Xbox. Probably not the best solution when your mind is at a standstill, as it only serves to stagnate it further, but hey, it's fun.

[rharpe]

Humans need human interactions. Socializing online, virtually, is not the same as at a place meeting others in person. Get off the computer and go meet new people. Make friends and good conversation.

You need to get out of this rut by doing something totally different.