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Hmm... depression has been a large part of my life for the last 12 years... and I can relate to the situation with your friend...  a friend of mine shot himself 2 years ago... I remember how badly in denial I was about it... it was like, "he shot himself... okay, he shot himself in the chest or something... so, he's really okay".  But when I went to the wake, as soon as I got to the front door of his parent's house, I just started balling... I still think I see him around (like I'll see someone who LOOKS like him), but then I realize he's not here anymore.

I guess, all I can really tell you is:
1.  It's okay to cry.
2.  Don't ever let somebody talk shit about your dead friend

As for dealing with depression; playing guitar was always my ventilation, I found a band to join... all the screaming helped.  Drawing and writing help too.  Scream therapy helps... wait until you're all alone, and scream obscenities, yell out what's on your mind.  Plus, I know it's a sign of madness, but talking to yourself helps a little too...

But lately, I've been extremely depressed, and none of the things that worked for me work as well anymore... being at a job that I hate doesn't help.  I don't know... I wish the best of luck to you... if you want you can drop me a line through my website, and I can be kind of like a counselor or therapist.

... :'(...

Dude, that sucks!  I thought you were really cool, bro...

I don't know dude... any girl that I've been friends with I always developed some kind of feelings for...

I've been dealing with this a little bit, too... my g/f spends a little too much time with this other guy... a little too much for my comfort... and she ain't doing anything to make me feel better or understand... I know everyone needs friends (I can't say that I have any except for my g/f)... but for her, she's only got me and this other guy... and she goes over to his house till 3 am on a school night, and goes to the movies with him, and wants me to let her stay over at his house in case of bad weather (it's near her school)... blah, blah... you suckers don't care.

(Here's yet another useless waste of bandwidth...)

I... NEED.... SOME-BO-DY... SOME-ONE....
CAN'T SOMEBODY HELP ME------!?

Look, I'm just looking for a person to talk to about my problems with... there's too much stress in my world and I'm starting to lose it here...  either I'm about to hit the bottle, the bong, or someone's face... unless I can vent a little...

...and now I have to go to work...

Lock it if you want... I don't care...

hmmm.... it's the best I can do...



Many thanks to Flippy D for the tip on hotlinking.   Peace

The only reason I asked about Photoshop is because a lot of people out there who use it have really impressive graphics, etc.  I just kinda wanted to give it a try.  The only thing I'm good with is your standard paint tool and that's what I draw all my graphics in, but I wanted something with more options... such as shading, etc.

As for the compilers... I haven't really had a chance to sit down and tinker with them.  I can tell you that the one compiler is the Borland C++ Builder 5, that's all I can really tell you.

Alright, first off...
- I can never seem to remember what program a lot of people use for their graphics in ags... is it Paintshop Pro?  Or Photoshop?... and does anyone know where I could download a demo or something?

- A guy I work with gave me a C++ compiler and a COBOL compiler.  I've never worked with anything beside AGS, RPG Toolkit, and Adventure Maker... to use these compilers; can I just type up my commands in wordpad, like I do in AGS?

I suppose there's nothing  wrong with it... it's not like you have to post your Social Security number along with it or anything...

...but I'm a little nuts, so I always use a fake name anyways.

Hmm... this is tough... well lemme start with the basics...
Dimebag Darrel - Guitarist.  This guy has the know how and skills when it comes to guitar... I'd sell my soul for a chance to be able to play like him.
Bill Gates - basically cuz he started his life as a nobody, like all of us do, and now a few decades later, his net worth is something like 40 billion...
Ron Jeremy - Porn Star. Come on, look at this guy... he looks like a troll... but he's slept with some of the most attractive women in the world, he's set a couple records, multimillionaire, get's more booty than Hugh Hefner (oh yeah, he's another one too...).  Ron Jeremy is proof that anyone, has a chance.
George Romero - Film Writer/producer.  This man is responsible for the original black and white Night Of The Living Dead.  It doesn't seem like there are any people out there besides this guy that are as obsessed with zombies as me (John Russo helped with the movie, and is responsible for the newer Living Dead movies, but what's with the whole "brains" thing?)
Albert Einstein - Physicist, astronomer; hell, what didn't this guy get into?  This man's theories on relativity are brilliant.
Steven Hawking - Genius.  I think he's the smartest man in the world, which is cool, but it sucks cuz he's in a wheel chair and uses a computer to speak.
Plato - Philosopher. The father of modern thought.  "I think, therefore I am."
Michaelangelo - Artist.  Come on, give this guy some credit... he painted the entire ceiling of some stupid church with a giant mural, and he wasn't afraid to push the envelope, think of David.
I suppose that's all the better I can do...

Well, if it makes anyone feel more comfortable... I'm going on 21, and I still haven't graduated... I'm working on getting my HSED... but it's taking a long time, cuz of my work hours.

...actually have a high school diploma/GED/HSED?

I would actually like to know this...  Reply to this post and leave the year you graduated, your current age, and your type of diploma...
- there's of course, a high school diploma
- then there's a GED, for independent schools or people who go to a technical College to get their diploma
- then there's an HSED, here in Wisconsin it qualifies you for graduating high school because a GED apparently isn't good enough for employers 'round these parts
...or, if you haven't graduated yet, leave your age, and just put no diploma (if you're comfortable with it).

Some of you wonder why I would put something that seems so insignificant on the forum... just out of curiosity.  Just wondering if anyone else out there is as down on their luck as me... (you know... crappy job that pays dirt, drives a rustbucket p.o.s., few friends 'cuz work takes up all your time, etc.) ...or am I the only sad, sorry sucker here who lives his life in a melancholy haze?

Just a reminder, you DON'T have to answer these questions...

Hey, if you guys like horror games... you could check out my site.  I don't have any games finished yet... but it might give you something to look forward to.  Plus, I'm looking for some constructive criticism... I wanna know what people think of my ideas.  I basically built my site specifically for these kinds of games...

Not just horror games, though... horror related themes, like my rpg, Vampires.. it's not exactly horror-ific....  it's more like a cross between Soul Reaver and Final Fantasy... nothing in that game that would make you piss your pants.  Lazarus isn't supposed to be scary, just creepy and trippy.  Bad Moon Rising, that's the only horror game I'm working on.  I'm considering doing my own version of the PSX's R.e. rip-off, the abomination, Countdown Vampires.

So check me out, aright!

I've tried talking to her in the past, but it always ends up in a huge argument... so I've abandoned talking.  (I really shouldn't have to bring up my issues with the picture... it should just be a given... I took down all my pictures in my room a long  time ago because I know she doesn't want to look at them).

I think what the thing with her friends that makes me upset is the fact that I've only met one of her friends (and I had to listen to him brag all night about how he nailed her, he just kept talking about it... she wouldn't tell him to shut up, so I hit him and broke his nose... that started another fight between me and her).  You see, these guys don't know me... therefore... why would they feel any obligation to show respect for the fact that she's my girl?  I've already had problems with her co-workers asking her out (you know... the whole "he doesn't need to know" routine), she won't just tell them to go to hell... and I'm not always there to protect my territory.

I don't really wanna get too far in detail with all of the things that irritate me about her,  I think it would be a very big waste of a lot of bandwidth.

As some of you have noticed... I don't like talking things out... I have anger problems... and yes, Femme Fatale, I get extremely jealous (but there are reasons for that...).

I'm really surprised at how many people replied to this post... I didn't think anyone would care (which is why I felt stupid about asking for other people's opinions).

I really don't want to leave her... she is a very lovable person, but we just can't seem to see eye to eye on anything.  I'm sure she's got her own version of the story... but still, all I've got left is my dignity, and if I  can't get her to stop irritating me... then I know what I have to do.

Well if any of you would like to check out the game, you can go to the homepage HERE.

Can anybody fill me in on this other "zombie game"?  It's called "All Flesh Must Be Eaten"...  what's up with it?  How do you play?  What does playing it consist of?

Since you have plastice models they probably won't look to good painted anyway, they don't have much detail too work with in the first place....

Yeah - forget about painting those zombie miniatures. There is over 100 of them, and they're made of that soft bendy plastic that you can hardly paint at all. Still, great game - excellent for all sorts of expansion sets (which I've understood are going to appear soon).

No no, I'm talking about painting Citadel Miniatures... they're made of pewter and they're used for the game Warhammer.  You actually thought I was trying to paint those tiny plastic zombies?  All 100 of them?  Crazy!

Well... first of all, lets clear something up (it seems a lot of people misunderstood this part)...  The photo in question IS IN FACT of her first boyfriend.  He lives in California (she and I live in Wisconsin)... and he broke up with her after almost a year (even after she spent so much money for the two times she went to see him).  He broke up with her because he was having trouble quitting drugs (in my opinion, he loved drugs more than he loved her).  She still talks to him, they still talk about "them"... but why do I have to look at the damn thing?  It's a double picture frame, with his senior pic on one side, and a picture of her on the other side.   It sits out... in plain view... on her desk.  My picture is across the room... stuck to her mirror... all bent out of shape with crease marks and wear and tear from falling off the mirror all the time.

I'm sorry... I've lost my train of thought...  Things have started to irritate me even more lately... but I'll write more when I regain my train of thought.

How come?  The only other tool I'm good with is RPG Toolkit... on second thought, that might work, but... ahh, what the hell... what would you recommend?

Well, about the pic... I don't wanna say anything (she already called me "posessive" because of a little incident with one of her male coworkers, some beer, and a nice little evening alone).  I just kinda wonder if she's even over him, she always talks about him... I don't wanna be with her if I'm not the #1 guy in her life.

Plus... that's just it... I kinda don't trust her...

Yep that's the one.  I've only been able to play it by myself (which isn't so fun), 'cuz I can't find anyone out here who plays those kinds of games.  I've been thinking of using AGs to make it into a comuter game (for all of the people who can't find someone else to play it with).  Do you think I'd get in trouble for copyright infringement if I did that?  Even if it were freeware?  I mean 'cuz, I've got all the rules and stuff, and I can just scan the cards and city tiles, and fix it up with some animated zombies and players, and add a "create your own mission" type of thing.

Don't worry dude... my painting ability kinda sucks too.  I've got an Eldar army for warhammer 40K, and they all have the same color scheme (red, green, black, and white), not to mention it looks like they were painted by a 5 year old.

Wouldn't it piss you off if your girl had like, 500 friends that are guys (most of them her ex's or people she's been with), and only one or two friends that are female?

Better yet, wouldn't you get aggravated if even after seven months with your girl, she still hasn't taken the picture of her ex in her bedroom and put it away so you don't have to look at it...?