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Cont, you are the most INSENSITVE person on the face of this earth! You should feel SOOO guilty for putting me through this emotional crap! In fact, you should feel SO guilty for all of that, that you'll be giving me all your money and monetary belongings.

(How'd I go on the 'guilt' thing?)

Okay - so I ended up having the HIV test done early this morning. I should get results in 1-2 weeks...

And they gave me a lollipop for being so "brave". I was too scared shitless to really argue...

They don't remove the kidney? That's cool. I'd brag about that.

I suppose I could brag about aids too, at least to the right people... I suppose. I tried it on my ex-girlfriend, and she was all like "agh! You freaked the hell out of me! Don't EVER do that again! That's not funny!". I asked if she wanted to donate money to me, for being so heartless. She said "no".

After I explained why I did it she calmed down, and had a bit of a chuckle. A bit... But I wouldn't half mind being self-righteous all the time. It's one hell of a feeling... And you're all "I have aids and I'M STILL BETER THAN YOU! PWNED!" I guess...

Wow - I totally dig some of those lake district photos! Even without those 'awesome' filters, you've captured the scenes really nicely. The only thing that bothers me is that the middle sheep in No. 12: "Baaaa", looks like it's bleeding badly from its side or something....

Las, I have no idea if the first part of your post is serious or not, given the last three sentences... I know hiv positive chimps can't get aids, so I assume the same is true for other animals...

And Snarky, people ARE very inconsistent. I remember in my final years of high-school when a girl had a crush on me, I was kinda put-off and very, very spooked. I thought "No way is ANYTHING going to happen with her..." and then when she lost interest, I was put off again, thinking "Hey - why did she lose interest? That's not fair! She's meant to have a crush on me!"

Oh, and Yuf, I'll pm you my number if you're really interested, complete with my parents full names, list of medications taken (if any), current moods and social standing. Just remember - when you talk to them - DON'T have an accent; DON'T have original ideas or opinions, and DON'T DON'T DON'T use the words "You", "Are" and "Wrong" in the same sentence. Ever.

Other than that - I think you should get a long with them fine

Yufster, would you marry me? I think I love you. Well - more accurately your ability to get people to do things for you, but there's not THAT much difference...

And I'll feed you twice a week.

Ah, nearly wet myself reading these

They really put a smile on my face!

I thought a lot about what I wanted to say to them last night, and pretty much figured it out. Now I just have to find the right time to bring it up. Probably when they ask me "so have you finished that book yet?"

I know they're doing it out of love etc - I really do get that. But it's still hard. It'd be great if they all just got one massive burst of amnesia and i was able to say something like "Oh, hi. I'm you're son. And I'm gay. And you love it."

Well my parents just gave me the most AMAZING gift!

A book.

But not just ANY book! No, THIS book is called "Help for men who struggle with sexual identity!"

And the snappy catch-phrase under the title is "The problems are real - but so are the solutions..."

How very very damn patronizing. I thought they were accepting me and sort of giving me space for a while, and now I see they just backed off with a whole bunch of books to read that they're now palming off to me.

And that's just crap becuase I was having a really good day today (after having a damn lot of bad ones), and now they've just thrown me straight back into depression ( <- melodramatic word, I know...)

I was actually considering telling them about the HIV test, but now feel like there's no way I can do it yet. I realise I still have to get through the whole "Yes, i AM gay!" stage first, which I thought I'd got through... argh! I'm just really angry now.

I know they were doing it out of love and concern. I just wish they hadn't.

I could sort of understand being reluctant to come out to her children....

Not sure if I mentioned this previously, but my ex-girlfriend (now my best friend) found out her mum was a lesbian about 2 months ago, and she was in love with a woman who was already in a lesbian relationship with one of her best friends. A bit complicated....

Now my ex doesn't have ANY problems with homosexuality - it's just uncomfortable for her to imagine her MUM being gay, since it means she has to accept she didn't LOVE her dad the way she said she did and things like that.  And yes, this is still a little off-subject....

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I would suck if you get positive

Without being TOO vulgar, I certainly think you would not be doing that...

Thanks eric Oz, not too sure about the time length. There are things you can buy from chemists that are a bit like pregnancy tests and give you results in about 5 minutes, but the proper blood tests the doctor will do can take up to 14 days.

Plus, of course, theses tests may not be conclusive. You can be infected with HIV up to 6 months before any tests will pick up, so naturally if this one is negative, I'm still going to have to go for another round the 6 month mark. But at least by then i'll be more prepared for it...

heh, that penguin thing is GREAT! Made me laugh out loud. That is kinda cute

Oh, and I'm going for HIV test tomorrow. Wish me all the best people!

Thanks guys

What's worrying is that we DID share razors and such, even if we both nicked ourselves, and we DID share toothbrushes (I never would've thought I'd be saying that since I'm extremely possessive of my dental tools for some reason...), and there was plenty of possible opportunity for the condition to be transmitted.

I don't think I'm being unduly worried, but then again most alcoholics insist that they aren't* , so I'm probably not the best judge of it.

And yeah, yakspit, the uncertainty IS kicking my ass. But right now I think getting a positive result would kick it just a little more, which is what has me so apprehensive right now...

Thanks for the 'prayers' guys. Let's hope they get answered

*alcoholic, not unduly worried

heh - I think that was slightly less funny than you hoped...

No offence taken, so relax, but my chances of being positive are VERY real. I'm finding it a bit hard to laugh about

Any local doctor will do it. Well they SHOULD. Cost ranges from free through to about $20.

It's like the ultimate thrill!

Yes yuf, I'm getting tested

Yay me.

You'll find that it's already been mentioned, oh, about fifty million times on previous pages...

Heh. Yeah, I'm one of those bitchers this year. Not normally - but, as you've probably read I've had a rocky ride recently, and EVERYTHING about Valentines reminded me of different aspects of that rocky road.

But yes, those people who do it EVERY year without fail annoy me. Worse still, some of my COUPLED friends whinge about it. "Oh, valentines is SUCH a drag! It just means we have to spend money on *insert name* when s/he knows I love him/her already!" Um... okay. I don't get that point of view. I mean, yes, they love them regardless of valentines, but if you don't like it, don't celebrate it. Don't go and bitch to us singletons about how much it drags to be in a loving relationship with someone where you have the opportunity to express it....

Incidentally, my Valentines wasn't actually that bad. A lot of good things happened to me, I just wanted it to be over for symbolisms sake

What you saying, hyde? Punk!

Anyhow - ignoring the side-effects of caffeine - after doing a bit of looking it looks like I can get a free one done, but it's like a a two hour drive. Or I could get like a 10 dollar one for 5 minute drive...

But I really don't want to PAY to have someone tell me I'm going to die young.

And I'm so glad Valentines is over. And to think I was looking forward to it nigh on 3 months ago. Being single really makes you bitter, I guess. Now I only see it as some huge over-commercialised excuse for selling stupid pink balloons. Wow - THAT was irrelevant...

So back on topic, yeah... um... I'll get tested soon. I promise. But I've been saying that for a while now...

Gosh, Eric - I think you just saved my soul! Somehow...

Oh, believe me, if there was a middle ground, then I'd be there with my white picket fence already.
So I'm commiting myself to the 'gay/evil side'. I suppose...