I've been under some stress lately. The day I joined the forum was the day after my wife gave birth to our baby, 10 weeks premature, by emergency ceasar. Two days before I joined the forum, a friend from childhood who was more like a brother was murdered. I was really in crisis mode come to think of it. I had some thoughts I'd been thinking about AGS, and some tutorial material I was working on, and I basically created an account, splurged it all onto the forum and made a complete dick of myself. I'm sorry for that.
I'm presently 400km away from home, living in a tiny student bedroom with my wife, with a crappy internet connection to keep me sane between hospital visits. My 5 yo daughter is 400km away, living with "grandma". We'll be up here until our new daughter is mature enough to be transferred back to our local hospital which is still 3 or 4 weeks away.
So I know it's not adventure game related stuff, but I guess I want to explain why I've been a grumpy argumentative dickhead of late. I'm normally not this hard to get along with, just a lot of stuff has changed unexpectedly and in such a short time. I want to put this behind me and try to show people a different side... Basically, this adventure game stuff is keeping me together right now, despite the fact I originally started the game as part of a side-job for a magazine I write for. The editor has told me not to worry with it but I get relaxation from drawing rooms and scripting dialog, seeing other peoples creations and talking about it is fun too.
I just worry that I've messed things up by starting out on the wrong foot. I hope I can make the record straight with this post. I feel I have a lot to offer the community over time, but I don't want to have to struggle to prove myself against a bad first impression.
I hope this makes sense and doesn't sound like pathetic whining, but if it does, then hey, I wear my heart on my sleeve sometimes, take it or leave it (also sometimes I have a hard time censoring my thoughts though I do try...)
Peace all.
P.S. I should add that I do not want any pity or remorse or sympathy or anything like that. Just understand this is not who I normally am and I am still finding myself. That is all I wanted to say, but I had to explain it because I felt just saying it like that wouldn't be credible.
I'm presently 400km away from home, living in a tiny student bedroom with my wife, with a crappy internet connection to keep me sane between hospital visits. My 5 yo daughter is 400km away, living with "grandma". We'll be up here until our new daughter is mature enough to be transferred back to our local hospital which is still 3 or 4 weeks away.
So I know it's not adventure game related stuff, but I guess I want to explain why I've been a grumpy argumentative dickhead of late. I'm normally not this hard to get along with, just a lot of stuff has changed unexpectedly and in such a short time. I want to put this behind me and try to show people a different side... Basically, this adventure game stuff is keeping me together right now, despite the fact I originally started the game as part of a side-job for a magazine I write for. The editor has told me not to worry with it but I get relaxation from drawing rooms and scripting dialog, seeing other peoples creations and talking about it is fun too.
I just worry that I've messed things up by starting out on the wrong foot. I hope I can make the record straight with this post. I feel I have a lot to offer the community over time, but I don't want to have to struggle to prove myself against a bad first impression.
I hope this makes sense and doesn't sound like pathetic whining, but if it does, then hey, I wear my heart on my sleeve sometimes, take it or leave it (also sometimes I have a hard time censoring my thoughts though I do try...)
Peace all.
P.S. I should add that I do not want any pity or remorse or sympathy or anything like that. Just understand this is not who I normally am and I am still finding myself. That is all I wanted to say, but I had to explain it because I felt just saying it like that wouldn't be credible.