No, its okay, and if you think it would help, go ahead, join. I really respect you for opening up like this. My father was a Finnish Alcoholic ( he didn't drink often, but when he did, it was to get drunk) and he joined AA and it helped. I hope you get you life back on track. I support you, and am praying for you. Thanks for sharing, that takes a lot of guts. (and I got that F.A. thing from National Geographic)